Reminisce ♥
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"Have you ever felt emotional over & over again when reminiscing over the past situation that had took place?
That's what I'm feeling now.
Its a mixture of happy & sad feelings. - Dianneares"
" It's gonna be a long post,
will you read about my humble life?- Dianneares "
The man that I chose to became my partner, my bestfriend, my present, my future, and my last till we meet in jannah :') Taken during my 18th Birthday at Pasir Ris Pit. A surprise celebration.
How time flies and how we have struggled to keep loving each other without fail. We used to be this crazy person, whom don't believed that we can last with each other. To the surprised, I even gave myself a deadline that I can only last with him for less than 6 months. Thats how vulnerable I have been last time, I used to give up even before I start. I used to rant even before I try. With all those experiences in going through a rough pace before given the chance to met this angel, I almost give up in the name of LOVE. My life wasn't as smooth as anyone else, I have disadvantages of choosing my life partner just so you know which parents wouldn't think that their child is too young to be involve in a relationship? To be honest, my past relationships before him always turn out to be a failure. Thank you dear love for everything :')
" Let the stories being told to others,
so that they will understand that we loved not because of looks or wealth, but because of love, sincerity, honesty & faith towards each other. - DianneAres "
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15 years old? lol
There was once, Iam full with emotions and I love everything about goth. I loved all the metal songs till it stuck on my brain functioning like a replay. My life is all about hallucination, hallucinating that a prince will take me away from all the pain. Ive been finding for one without giving up even after all those falls that a guy have made to pull me down. But then, as I grew up I started to understand that the definition of prince in reality only involve lust. They loved you just for one thing which is lust, I could hardly differentiate which is the one for me and which is not. So before they get their lust satisfactions, i will usually leave them. Im not a cheapskate -.-" Correct me if I'm wrong but I wouldn't say all is the same, its just that I couldn't find one just yet to change my belief at that moment of time. Well, I couldn't blame them neither cause I'm from a school called 'HELL'. The name of the school itself represent a whole history. I was labeled to be one of those but then when I said I'm not, it triggered their belief down and start to get to know me. I was fragile back then, thinking that everyone is sincere in befriending me but unfortunately its just a moments full of hopes. When I said hopes doesnt mean give in to lust. Im not stupid, for god sake. I found a few which is genuine, but I decided to let it go cause I thought they are too good for me. How foolish could I be?
16 years old? lol
Maybe, I was too young back then to understand and adapt fully how reality works. I was lost, I couldn't find the definition of myself anymore. I mix with bad companies, I chose the wrong path but then what kept me strong is discipline. Although with whoever I've mixed with, it doesn't mean I need to become like them. Discipline brings me to who I'am today, Often I remind myself that I can mix with whoever I want to but that wouldn't change a thing about me. People starts to procrastinate, starts making my life difficult and to the extend all the guys that I knew is the one that SHE knew. After all those days struggling to prove people that I can achieve the same like others could achieved, i just did :) I left all those mongers aside and start a new once I enter into ITE.
Life was all afresh back then in ITE, I decided to leave all the unwanted and make a history on my own in a good ways. I studied hard and make it through, so I deserved all the fine opportunities that came. Thank you god for making every difficulties as a possibilities. Thank you for the good companies during those times :) Although its a guy course, without fail they will respect me as a women with pride by knowing their limits. I'm glad to know everyone of you, sincerely.
After a few months in ITE, I've finally met the one for me which is like a blessing in disguise. We have known each other for years and he's stuck in my msn list like forever, amusingly we only chat randomly. He was stuck in my msn since I was like 14 or 15? The one that I thought would never be the one for me last time is the one I decided to spend my life with. Well, he's perfect in my eyes believe it or not. Although we are far apart different in terms of upbringing and mind perspective, what brings us together is the never ending love and dreams to achieve.
" The one that you have never notice is eventually the one waiting for you. - Dianneares "
"But sometimes we dont need a reason to fall in love,
it comes naturally without US realising. - Dianneares"
The photo that he noticed at my friendster when we start chatting with each other frequently :)
Till today, he thought I was wearing a bath rope in this picture but its actually a tube -.-'
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First date to Plaza singapure ; 0705
Our first date is to dhoby ghaut, but you fetch me from Khatib Mrt :) Amusingly i can recognize you but you cant. Maybe, photos have been doing me too much justice to look pretty or the makeup effects from different angle? hehe. I still remember how you looked like on our first date, black metal patch jacket with black metal band shirt and tattered denim. hahaha, while me? 3quarter denim with crochet sleeveless and sweater, with my high arch eyebrows. two different worlds indeed? I still remember passer by throwing a sarcastic remarks at us ; 'sial lah pompan dia mcm minah abeh laki blackmetal'
" But that remark itself ain't going to bring us down,
we are already fond of each other. - Dianneares"
After I saw you sitting at khatib mrt seats opposite the bakery, I quickly approached to you cause i was late.
Me: Petir(his nickname at that moment) right? *smile*
Him: yah, how did you know?
Me: I recognize you, furthermore you are the only one that look like a blackmetal here *grinning*
Him: Ohh okay, so where we heading to?
Me: I thought we are going to dhoby ghaut right?
So we took the train to Marina Bay and we got a seat! I was like so happy but didnt show it. haha, kiasu as always. He was permanently staring towards my face direction, throughout our journey to dhoby ghaut station he kept looking at me and smile. I was like, is he a psycho or pervert? OMG!! Even the passengers aware of it and kept staring at us. Only god knows how paiseh i was! I think i got blush also, hahahaha. While typing this I felt a lil bit shy okay!
Me: Why are you looking at me like that?
Him: Its been a long time since i had a date.
Me: Oh okay *Look at other direction avoiding eye contact*
Him: You're so beautiful.
Me: *whispering to myself; now tell me how should i react. Im scared lei faster reach dhoby ghaut station!*
And suddenly, poof! we reached dhoby ghaut station, so its like literally im safe? hahahah. catch a last minute movie on Hansel & Gratel(our first movie date). Confidently we thought its a horror movie but then we have come to a conclusion that its a mental disorder movie. hahaahahhahaha~ Funny like mad! So after the movie we took the escalator and he suddenly held my hands, i was like...excuse me? Then he said, 'you dont like it? sorry...' After that we head to late lunch + dinner and I got this habits when I don't really know that person I wont eat anything or etc. Im always paranoid thinking that people will spike my food, hahahhahaa. He bought drinks also I was like watching over him, over reacting in taking precaution :p Actually Im shy also to eat, hahahhahahahahha. Then we sit at the sitting area outside Plaza Singapura, he was talking and I kept avoiding for any eye contact, im afraid there's an electric wave happens when we stare through each other eyes. I guessed, i watch too much hindi movies. hehehehe :p
Him: Im talking to you but why are you looking at the other side, Im here.
Me: Nolah, im listening what.
Him: Yes you are.
Him: can you look at me instead aina?
Me: *look at him for few seconds and turn to other sight*
Him: *He kneel down on his knees, facing towards me with eye to eyes contact while holding my hands*
Him: Can you look at me now Aina? Im talking to you.
Me: *Blushing like mad* Err okay
Me: *Ehhh like got electric wave*
The conversation continues with him kneeling down on his knees, passer by was looking. I swear I blush like one crazy women! hahahahah. He made me feel special on our first date? But then in my mind, is he sweettalking bulletshit with me? I was indeed unsure about that tho, I can't seems to find the answer to my question. There's some more incidents about our first date but i will give it a pass :p
So after the talks, we head home. He offered to send me home but i rejected! too scared lah, later while walking also he stares at me all the way then how? hahahhaha
We kept contacting for the next few days till one of the days ;
Him: What are we?
Me: I dont know, friends?
Him: I thought we are more than friends?
Me: I think so.....
Him: So are we together now?
Me: Yes I think?
Him: Okay :)
Me: But you didnt sound me?
Him: You just sound me
Me: -.-' when is our official date?
Him: I dont know?
Me: Make it on our first date? 0705..?
Him: okay :)
So thats basically how we get together -.-' claiming that i sound him to be my boyfriend. Till today he's a denial at this part! Try to ask him and he will say I'm the one who's crazy over him. *slap forehead*
:)
" He will always be there to surprise me. He's full of surprise. - Dianneares"
" There are many difficulties that we faced together,
but we chose to be together and we chose to love each other unconditionally be it in any circumstances. - Dianneares "
Dear Love,
I would like you to know how much I've loved you since day 1. Till now, im still nervous looking through you eyes, im still shy when you praise me and I'm forever contented when you showed you care. I'm glad you came to my life. We may not be like how we first met or how we used to be during those days, but I want you to know that I've fallen in love with you again and again. Our love are still fresh lingering through my mind and to the extend its like just yesterday we met and fall in love. You're an important person in my life, you have been a part of me & I'am contentedly attached to you forever. I understand that as we gets older , the way we express may change cause we are both adults but I hope we would continue making our love life stories interesting. I loved you not now, not then but forever. I was sad earlier on while about to type down all the reminisce about us, but now Im all glad that I have you as the best thing that ever occurs in my life. Thank you for being a part of me, for being patience towards me, for loving me sincerely more than anyone else, for making me a priority in your life, for pampering me, for listening to my stories every time i need a listening ears and lastly for giving tolerance towards this girl whom you chose to love forever till we grow old :') Thank you & I love you too, very much & always.
Sincerely,
Your Future Wife
